December 2009
Curtains up and Bad Romance
6am love affair.
I just finished watching 27 dressed.
Whenever i watch romance movies it gives me an opportunity to feel like im in love for an hour and a half. It sounds pathetic but it makes me feel good. It gets me excited for the real things.
im lame
“You are like the modern day confucious i swear greg. You know exactly the right...”
– Amol
“All i have to say, if [cant say his name] cant seem to put you in his life, then...”
– Amol
yupp its mee barbie pushin my pink ferrari five...
New years eve party? [x] New years outfit? [x]...
shoe shopping tomorrowww :)
Callate y besame = shut up and kiss me
How to acid wash →
Packing my bags.
SO i was stalking or researching as i now call it. And i realize all the perfect guys live in California. They go to an art school for photography or very involved in it, dress very well, gauges, and cute.
Aint nothin for me in shit Maryland..
seriously.
New years resolution #3
When i SAY im going to choreograph…i actually DO IT!!
I titled it Impulse.
So i stumbled across the letter i was supposed to send to that guy. I still feel the same way kinda i guess, but it felt different reading it since i havent really thought of it in those words in a while.
Desesperado / Impossibile / Hopeless
“Love is really nothing but a dream that keeps waking me”
– John Mayer
I pretend to fly away
today is just very off for me. I just woke up in a very mellow mood. All i remember dreaming about is walking and talking to a guy and then he randomly holds my hand. I dont know if that subconsciously had anything to do with it but idk.
I cant seem to care about anything and i dont have any pitty or sympathy for little stupid problems. And I just dont have it in me to give advice today, not...
Lonely is the song i sing. Is it my name?
ughhhh
woke up with a broken heart.
i just want that person to hug. That person i can rely on to make me feel right.
ew. im pathetic.
Yikes
Him: Was i giving you too much information?
Me: Not to me
Me: Im used to it in a way lol
Him: Whats that mean wink wink
Me: lol idk haha im not as affected by vulgarity as i probably should be haha
Him: haha lol
Him: then i guess i shouldnt tell you im getting head now lol
Him: hahaha honestly lmao
These are the friends i have! HAHAHA
“Push it in and twist the knife again.”
everybody's sorry about something
Its very unfortunate
To see someone close to you have to deal with so much. A friend of mine is just getting smashed with stuff and theres only so much i can help. I will be there 102% for her but i dont know how else to help.
Its one of those things where you want nothing more in the world than for that person to be happy.
me being the empathetic person i am, im almost in tears while she...
seriously
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Broke and happy
Today my goal was to go to chinatown and get a blazer. Aaaaaand i got two :D And theyre very nice. pics coming. One is the perfect dress up blazer slash new years blazer ;) and the other is very everyday :DD
Cold Feet
So i had dinner with some friends for my friend Rakels bady! It went really well! I found out that a guy i kinda not really had beef with was gonna show up and i was reallyyy nervous about how things were gonna be. It turned out things werent awkward at all and it was like normal. At the end we hugged and i said “im glad you came” and he said it too. This makes me happy lol
thoughts:
boogiemind:
If we arent friends…well then “homie”, beats me why i keep hopin for it. No point of pretending. Its draining my soul.
all i can say…
I’m sorry.
-Bryan
I feel the same way sometimes..time to let go, eh?
im on the hunt for a blazer...the A-list type..
I want to go to chinatown but im soo fucking lazy and its raining! BUT the sales are going :( ughhhh
http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?_dyncharset=ISO-8859-1&navAction=jump&id=15005093&search=true&isProduct=true&parentid=SEARCH+RESULTS&color=01
Thats the one i want as of now. But its in chinatown AND its on sale at urban. AND urban is having a...
New Years resolution #2
Be better and wiser with my money!!!!
Self Infliction
I dont know why i always do this. I know its unintentional but still.
I lovee romance movies. Ive noticed that for an hour and a half i allow myself to pretend im in love, and then once the movies over im back to reality and lonely again.
Oh me, oh my.
Merry Christmas
Can't tell me nothing now, baby, i know hot to fly
This just feels right. Everything is glorious.
Since monday, ive been at my dads house. Seriously, i am genuinely happy. I feel like im a part of a real functioning family with a mother (step-mom), father, and annoying little sister, instead of that broken “family” at my mothers house.
The sun shines brighter here. The snow is a little whiter. My smile is a little bigger.
Ramar said...
New years resolutions....what?
Do people actually change? Or do they just have an idea of changing something that they dont like about themselves. Me personally have never really changed during the years.
I plan to change that
meh.
No matter how old i get, i will always find...
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